This Is Silly

I found a little questionnaire that really reminded me of the myspace days so I decided to do it. Why not? I don't really have much to blog about anyways now that school started. My first class starts at 9:15 am and my last class ends at 2:05 pm. Then after that its work from 2:30-10:30 pm. That's really all there is to it. So anyways. Here we go.

1. Five ways to win your heart
- Buy me flowers
- Make me laugh
- Go to church with me
- Read books/ ride bikes/ play tennis or catch/ go on adventures with me
- Listen.

2. A book you love
- A Voice In The Wind by Francine Rivers. I cried the first time I read it. Actually the entire trilogy is really good. I used to read them every six months, I think I read them about 7 or 8 times now. They're good.

3. Things you want to say to an ex
- Depends on who it is. Probably I'm sorry for breaking your heart... I lose interest really really fast and I really hate that. B is the first one I haven't gotten annoyed of/lost interest in/ wanted to get away from asap. Actually I really really like him. A lot. I never dated in high school, I was never into anyone for longer than a month or two so it just didn't really work out for me. Plus I liked being single. I rocked the single life!

4. Five Pet Peeves aka You Know What Really Grinds My Gears? (Said in Peter Griffins voice)
- When people go under the speed limit. Uggggghhhhhhhhhh. Especially if I'm on my way to work or school. Just don't.
- Laziness. Especially if it is such a simple, simple job. I'm not going to go into specifics but seriously people.
- When people change the volume/heat setting etc. in my car. That is the fastest way to make me dislike you. Don't change my music, don't turn it down, and especially don't talk over my music when my favorite song is on. No.
- I am very organized, some people might think it's OCD. No, I just like everything really neat and absolutely perfect. Of course, not everyone is like me and when people do things wrong, or store things upside down, or are just really disorganized. I keep quiet but I will have to go after them and fix everything. It gets pretty bad sometimes. If I have clothes laying on my couch I will not be able to go to sleep until I get up and put them away. Even if it is 1 am.
- When people take my stuff/ eat my food without asking. Esp being a college student and really never having time to go out and grab a lunch. It drives me absolutely bonkers to come to work, starving, and finding out that my stuff is gone. Whew. Yeah. I'm buying myself a mini fridge to store in my room and hopefully that'll solve most of my problems. Plus I have a coffee station set up in my room and it'd be nice to have my creamer right there. (My creamer at work disappears to fyi). And no, I don't live in the house so. Okay.

5. Ten songs I've been listening to lately
- Wings, Heart of Gold, Strange Birds, and Light Me Up by Birdy. That's four.
- Slow Dancing In A Burning Room by John Mayer
- Cherry Tulips by Headlights (I don't know what it is but I LOVE this song)
- Lift Me Up by Mree. This girl is amazing, she writes, sings, and records her own music and videos. Her voice is really soft and just lovely. Check her out on YouTube!
- In My Life by The Beatles. Not a fan of them but I heard this song on a video that I was watching from one of my favorite videographers on Vimeo and I fell in love. You can check out some of her videos @ http://vimeo.com/haileydevine   Be Gentle With Me and Color In The Date are one of my favorites. Actually I like most of them. I don't know but they make me feel some type of way. (lol that line is so overused but that's all I could think of)
- Early On Tuesday by Jesse Cook.
- Airplanes by Local Natives.

6. What You Think About Mainstream Music
- I usually hate it. Everything is overplayed, plus the songs are all stupid. Everything is about butts, alcohol, sex, whatever. If you listen to the songs I wrote ^^ you'll find that my style is very different and mellow. I don't like people all that much (at times) and I definitely don't like to be like everyone else. I have this perfect quote that explains me completely but I'll put it down at the end of this post once I find it. Okay, truth. I do like one mainstream song A LOT and I listen to it on repeat all the time and Brian gets mad because I always get it stuck in his head but please please don't judge. Blank Space by Taylor Swift. Hahaha I said don't judge!

7.Your Opinion About Your Body And How Comfortable You Are With It
- Hmmm to answer or to not answer.  To be honest, I actually am really happy with my body. Okay maybe I would like to be a little bit more than 96lbs but I like being petite and small. I am going to start working out again and hopefully I'll gain some muscle weight. I do wish one thing was a little bit bigger but I'll have babies one day and then everything will be okay. (Embarrassed giggle.)

8. Five Phrases/Quotes That You Like
- Only five?? :( Okay.
- "Hey man, I love you. This many dollars worth." -Michael Scott from the office on Christmas gifts.
- I want to be like water. I want to slip through fingers, but hold up a ship.
- Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it. - Rumi  (Oh Rumi.. this one hits dead center. Right in the gut)
- The character of God is full mercy - not giving us what we deserve, and grace - giving us what we don't deserve.
-Things are sweeter when they're lost. I know - because once I wanted something and I got it. It was the only thing I ever wanted badly, and when I got it, it turned to dust in my hands. - F. Scott Fitzgerald

9. Somewhere You'd Like To Move Or Visit
- To be honest, I want to travel everywhere. Israel, Santorini Greece, Italy, Paris France, Bora Bora, Scotland, England (ughhhh the countryside is so beautiful.)
- If I were to move anywhere, I'd really like to go to Salt Lake City. I know it's Mormon central but I'm friends with a few Mormons and who cares. It's a really beautiful city, and plus it's huge! Of course it's not New York, but there's no way I can afford to move there, as much as I'd want to. I am actually really serious about Salt Lake. Maybe I wouldn't settle down there, but I'd definitely live there for a year or two. It'd be a fresh little start for me, I wouldn't know anybody, I would have a whole new city to explore, coffee shops and book stores to discover. Surrounded by the twinkling lights, and beyond that, splendorous mountains. I think it'd be amazing.

10. Give Pictures Of Five Famous Guys You Find Attractive.
- Really? Eh. Okay let me rack my brain.
- Okay, Number one is easy. Matt Bomer. His character on White Collar? To die for.

Those glasses? Melllllttttttt.

I know, right?

Okay, also Skylar Astin from Pitch Perfect. Only cuz his character is dweeby and absolutely adorable. 

 See, he's cute.

Okay now here comes the hard part. I honestly don't really have many that I could think of. At least not off the top of my head...........

Mario Blanco

Look at those luscious, flowing locks. 

I mean come on!!!!!

Okay last but not least. Random bearded men I found on Pinterest because I don't have anyone else I can think of that suits my fancy. Enjoy :) 

The face says I'm anguished but the beard says "I'll bear it with manly strength

Because beard. And man bun. That's why. 

I actually sent that last picture to Paul and tried to convince him to grow one. I'm also trying to make Brando grow one because he has really nice cheek bones, and just a wonderful face structure overall and I think he'd look... well.. drool worthy. He's not against it. I'm going to keep convincing him until he actually does because I'm persistent like that. As you can see, I'm into the whole long hair and beard thing. 

Okay I think that about does it. And as I said previously, here is this little thing I found that someone somewhere across the globe made up to describe me.

I'm a cat. I mean, not like a house cat, I'm a stray - who wanders the streets alone, kind of distant and mean.

I couldn't have said it any better myself.

Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs

I've been staring at this blank post trying to think of what to write, how to say what I need to say, how to convey my thoughts and feelings, but I am having difficulty making sense of my racing mind. All I know is that I need to write. Something. Anything.

Let's start with today:
1. Today is the first day of winter quarter and I am taking three core classes: Nutrition, Biology, and Spanish I. So far I like them, but I know it will be a difficult work load.

2. I am currently listening to Fire Within, an album by Birdy on repeat. Her voice is so lovely, and her music strikes a chord in me. I can't believe how cheesy that sounds. But listen to this, "You use your words as a weapon, but as a weapon I'll shed no tears." How can she know me so well?

3. It snowed yesterday, but now it's mostly gone.

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.I am not sure what else I am trying to say, All I know is that I am happy and sad and I'm trying to make sense of the peaceful hurricane inside of me. How so many emotions and feelings can live inside one person at one time. How in the midst of it all, I am somehow calm. Sure, my hands have been shaking terribly all day, and my mind is racing but my thoughts are still. I can't explain what is happening inside of me. How so much love, and confidence in this love can live inside my heart, and how so much confusion, doubt, hurt, and fear can live in my mind. I am torn. I am whole. I am nothing. I feel everything. I am rust and stardust. I am deeply in love. I am sad. I am a sinner. I am submerged in mercy. I am filled with hurt. I am surrounded by Grace. I am dust. I am a precious jewel. All I am trying to say is that I hope you don't think about the world as much as I do standing outside during a rainstorm a 3 am with a fire inside my soul.

Ringing in the New Year

Well Happy Happy New Year!!! This Christmas was probably one of the best ones I've had in several years. Brian ended up coming in for me and so I was able to go caroling with the family! On the eve of Christmas Eve B and I built a gingerbread house (we didn't even get halfway through) and exchanged gifts. I must say, I got pretty spoiled this year. I got a table-top easel, which I've wanted on for the longest time, I got a few wood rounds to paint on,  acrylics, and a set of watercolor and colored pencils. I also got two new coats, a sweet bathrobe from VS that I absolutely love. I can never find one that has full length sleeves, and thanks to Paul I now have one. I also got ME by Lanvin, a perfume I've been salivating over, Season 5 of White Collar :) a hastings gift card (because I'm a huge book worm and can't stop buying them) a bath and body works set, a wonderful Aroma Sleep Therapy bath set, the sweetest Nike sweater, and some underclothes from VS. I didn't think I would get this much, and the best thing about all of the gifts I got this year was that they were so thoughtful. So me. The Lavender Vanilla bath set I got to help me sleep, White Collar (I've been wanting to see S5 so badly) the art supplies, the bathrobe. I mean everything. I couldn't be more thankful. Plus I got a little bit of both worlds this year. On Christmas Eve, we opened our gifts, caroled a bit, and had dinner with the family. I'm really glad we did it at our house this year. Later that night I watched the Christmas Vacation for the first time. It was really cute. After Caroling on Christmas day, I had a second dinner with the Robertsons (whom I consider my second family). When I got there, I hung out with Jamie and we went over her gifts, and then Hazel and Lindsey asked me to read the Christmas story out of the Bible, so I read aloud. We had dinner, hung out, it was such a grand time. I haven't been this excited about Christmas probably since I was about in the fifth or sixth grade. And now even New Years is almost officially over. I cannot believe how fast this last week has flown by! This month even. I mean, I feel like I had just put up all of my Christmas decorations just, and now it's all over. However, this is the first time I haven't been sad that the year is finally over. I posted on instagram earlier today, saying, 2014 was a huge roller coaster of a year. I had so many ups, even more downs. It was one of the most eventful years ever, I have evolved so much, learned so much this year. It's crazy, I had no idea what was in store for me at the beginning of last year, but I am glad with the way everything turned out. I got everything that I needed out of this last year, and then some. I feel ready to say goodbye, and I am ready to face this new year ahead of me. Hello twenty-fifteen!

Dec 6, 2014

What could be better than crocheting by a lovely tree?

My traditional Christmas socks. Thank you, Ruben. :)

My dad likes sparkly things.

Jo-Ann's has the cutest gift bags!

Merry Christmas from the Babak household!

Pretending to be a princess. ;)

What's so funny, Miss T? (also, Elijah is really loving that present)

Sooooo happy with my bath set. Thank you Ruben and Maria!!!

Yeep!!

Merry Christmas Loren. 

I could just squeeze this little lovebug all day. Everyone was fighting for him!

(Elijah was more interested in Benjis remote control car)

Miss T, Masha, and I

No clue what is going on.

My slightly chaotic workspace. Trying out my new easel for the first time. THANK YOU MRS. JAMIE!!!!! 

Fancy Shmancy dinner

Wearing his new sweater. I have pretty good taste... hehe.

I hope everyones New Years ( and Christmas ) was merry and bright, filled with joyous laughter, and overflowing with love. I know mine was. Signing off with the happiest of hearts. Hello January 2015, also my birthday month. (!!!)